Is my 10 year relationship over?

I have been seeing my boyfriend of 10 years since I was 16. We moved over from northern ireland to England and now have the house, the dog and the careers. At this stage, I always dreamed that we would get married by now and be in the situation of talking about children. But money has always been the issue, especially for me as I have only started to work full time and we owe money to his parents from the house deposit. Every time I bring up the future he gets angry and tells me I am annoying or going on, then at times he talks about it too, makes a plan then doesn't follow through. He has proposed to me about 3 times but with no ring or plans, or forgets about it the next day saying we have no money to get married. He doesn't like me touching him, at all! Even cuddling is rare, he doesn't tell me he loves me or pays me any sort of compliment, although he would cook for me and displays his affection by doing something, but I need a boyfriend, not a cleaner or handyman. He disappears for hours and I am left at home. He rather spends his time at work than with me.Weren'tt even friends anymore. I cant tell him, he would just shrug it off and tell me how annoying and immature I am or would just say fine then leave, where would you go... I am just so unhappy but have nobody to talk to, no friends nothing. Even if I did leave I wouldn'tt get anybody else, anywhere to live, I would miss my dog and it would be very very messy and complicated, I grew up with this man and I do love him dearly. I keep imagining meeting somebody else but feel I am not good enough for anybody, or myself...I have serious self esteem issues. I dot know if it is me, am I the problem? Don't know what to do or go about fixing this